Disconnect

In this day and age, it is so easy for a person to disconnect from life. All they need do is to not answer their phone, emails or such. And those concerned for said person oftentimes are left in the dark. We try desperately to reach out. Due to the fact that today's society-at-large just doesn't connect one-on-one with genuine friendship much anymore, it is easy to disappear. We don't know our next door neighbor. We don't drop in on a friend and knock on their door unannounced. We are connected via cyber, but the human contact disappears. Can we take the blame for someone escaping? Or can we honestly believe that we are their solution? Is it safer to hide behind our prayers, behind our cyber defenses, for fear of stepping on someone's toes or crossing the line of concern? There really isn't any easy question, or answers for that matter.

I've Put Myself There...

You know how when you are pre middle age and you travel physically alone through a few life changing events and you discover how lonely that it can be by not having a human body next to you to let you know with a simple human touch or kindness that it will as always work out? I've put myself there. Tiring.

The whole apartment hunting thing. This whole sorting and purging and packing and moving stuff. Trying to get friends lined up to help with moving, or to respond. Tiring.

Basically pertenearly almost all the major life changing events. On my own. I survived. Tiring.

So, yeah.

The Drama Queen Bellers

Well. This is where I am. Yes, I am at work. In Bismarck. Mentally, emotionally, I haven't the clue where I am.

Life Instigators

Here I sit, the morning after my 45th Birthday. Where do I sit. Where am I. I am here. I work. I act. I believe. I live. Where are you. Last night I discovered the truth about Life Instigators. Those who want to instigate life with me. Those who goad or urge forward. Those who enjoy life. Those who share a mutual, two-way, continued, viable, living and breathing interest in life and all that it entails.

The Neuropathy Buzz

Friday, June 19, 2009

Where do I start? The current is that they've discovered I have some sort of poly(?)neuropathy in all four appendages. Continued at http://krten1966buzzing.blogspot.com/

A Snowball

 A good friend shared with me their financial story and asked about mine. Here is the reply:

Dear Politicians

Dear Campaigning Politician, Greetings.

Please stop the negative attack ads against your opponent. We know they are crazy. Please return to focusing on and promoting how you propose to help us common folk. In addition to DADT and Fair Labor and Housing laws for the GLBT citizens, I'd like to share some other concerns of mine.

Enjoying Potet Klub

 Photo Album and Text Following the Break...

Vacation, Tweeted

Phoenix Vacation, as Tweeted --

The Testimony -- Oct 20, 2009

I would like to share with you a story of God's grace. His deep, mysterious grace, mercy and compassion. I would like to share a story of how His grace collided with my world.

i'll leave the light on...

Re: REUNION

01 June 2009

Greetings.

My decision not to attend this gathering for the most part has to do with the kind of environment I've tried to silently endure in the past. Even though it has been made undeniably clear that folk don't agree with who I am, I wish y'all could set it aside and try to begin understanding things from my vantage point. What is usually meant to be a fun, social occasion for our whole family has become a burden, an especially painful one.

Quoted, On Stage

A selection of quotes from characters I've done on stage, dedicated to those who have made the craft most enjoyable...

enhanced buzzing

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Here's a proof that some people can't navigate a jet ski along the Missouri...

years, tears

wasted years, wasted tears

Love Not Hate

Found this in my email archives whilst cleaning out the emails, thought it'd be good to send this around again...

A Few Points of Randomness

Some random points that might help give an idea of my life...

Diversity(?) In Bismarck...

A few "Letters to the Editor" and articles in the Bismarck Tribune that might share an insight into living diverse in Bismarck...

Oh the drama!

A local community theatre actor's survey...

A view of faith

I struggle daily to seek God's grace, love and acceptance, such as found in just a few select passages: Luke 15:1-2; Luke 14:23-24; Luke 7:9; John 4; Acts 15; among the countless others.

What about my validity as a child of God? Let me summarize my life experiences...

The Entire Story -- A Bio

Before I begin any deep details, let me introduce myself by way of my biography from the 2006 Tengesdal-Lerfald family history book, "Mountains, Fjords, Prairies":